"Leave me here in my Stark Raving, Sick, Sad, Little World"

Ah, these damn internets. Sorry I haven't been on again, I just haven't had anything to say. I still don't, more or less. But then do I ever really say anything anyway?

Last Friday was a very strange day indeed. I woke up and took Aaron to work as normal, got home and smoked some weed, and was just sitting around watching something on my computer when my phone rang. It was my dad and he said that I needed to check the mail because he had sent me a letter. So I went out to the mail box and found a letter from him and opened it. As I unfolded the piece of paper a check appeared. My dad will randomly send me like 200 dollars, so I was thought "nice:" and looked at the check. I wonder what my face looked like when I looked at the amount and saw that it was for 10,000 dollars. Talk about surprised. I called him immediately to thank him, of course, even though I had no clue what to say. A mere "thank you" seemed drastically insufficient! But that's not the only reason the day was so strange. A couple hours after this happened I was playing a game and I went to smoke a cigarette at the computer. My bunny cage is right next to the couch so I looked down to pet R-Chan and there he was, ears askew and eyes wide open, lying on his side, dead. The little fucker just keeled over and fucking died. I have no clue what was wrong with him, he was fine that morning, but I guess that happens with rabbits. It was fucking sad. He was such a funny little guy, but such is life and death. It was just a strange day.

I am a lucky girl. It was really nice of my dad to do that. He said in the letter that they he had gotten an inheritence from my grandmother who passed away last year and he wanted to share it with my brother, sister and I. It came at a good time as well, I haven't been working for awhile so I hadn't been able to contribute financially. Aaron has been really patient about paying for everything for the last four months, but it was getting pretty tight. But now I can return the favor! And I want to call the community college and see if they offer any classes during the summer, and see what is available. I really think going back to school would help immensely with the way I feel. And now I can pay to have my treadmill moved to the apartment and start walking again. We left it at my mom's house when we moved out because it was too heavy for the two of to get up the stairs at our apartment building, so I haven't been getting much exercise. I just hate going to the gym where there are people. and I used to walk in our old neighborhood, but now we live downtown where also there are people, so I hadn't been doing it. Being in better physical shape definitely makes a difference in how I feel mentally. On that note both Aaron and I are also going to get on Chantix to quit smoking. After years of chain smoking and the damage to my lungs from meth use, my body will feel so much better. I am excited to get healthy again.

Now I just have to figure out what to do for Aaron for his birthday. I know I am going to get him a nice present but I am thinking maybe I should take him to the strip club as well. What straight guy wouldn't want some titties rubbed on their face for their birthday right? Plus it would be pretty hot to watch him get a lap dance or something. Or maybe a concert or something would be better? I don't know, anyone have any suggestions?